14 Feb Every cloud has a silver lining | Katie Good

So the last time I wrote a blog was rather a long time ago where I was hopeful for a successful final cross country season in America…

Well if anyone saw any results, you would probably see that it didn’t exactly go to plan! Whilst training was consistently going extremely well and I was physically healthy throughout the season, each race brought another incredibly disappointing result. Although I knew I was in great shape, mentally, I just couldn’t seem to overcome the demons of nerves, pressure and the expectation to perform whilst being in America. Although the season was demoralising, it was certainly a humbling experience and after some much needed rest and recovery at home over Christmas, I came back to America, mentally much more prepared to compete to the ability I knew I was capable of.

Unfortunately, my body has other ideas and what initially felt like some odd muscular pain was in fact diagnosed a few days ago as a stress response in my femur. As my first serious injury 4000 miles away from home, with six to eight weeks off running, I was initially left feeling a little lost. (I promise this becomes more cheerful!)

If anyone knows me, then you’ll know I have a weird stickler for lists and as my current position is firmly rooted to the sofa or a seat in Hubbard and Cravens coffee shop, I have some time to think a little more positively about it all…

1. Any long term injury gives you an opportunity to find yourself away from running. For the past few years, I have unintentionally let myself be defined by my running; it dictated my happiness and self-worth. Obviously, I won’t have it in my life for a while, so I can use this time away from the sport to find what makes me truly happy.

2. Whilst it’s a bitter pill to swallow, an injury like this is essentially a manifestation of how I haven’t looked after myself consistently for the past few years. I always thought I was robust and naively invincible to an injury. Needless to say I’m not, and trying to run 70 miles a week and not looking after myself literally bit me in the bottom…

3.When I am able to run, I want to start with a new attitude. Rather than reducing it simply to numbers, position, pace and splits, I want to go back to being completely ignorant to it all like I was when I first started running four years ago. I am excited to just run to my own rhythm which no one can influence and know that I am running for me.

In the meantime, the next six weeks will involve getting healthy, becoming a fish in the pool and stronger in the gym. But most importantly, I want to just enjoy being in America, making the most of my time with some truly lovely people here that I am unbelievably grateful to have :)